8-17

One minute I'm happy. The next I'm sad.

I think I'm bi-polar. Mark thinks I'm retarded. Heh. So do I. I miss my blood cells.

My mother is making my life a living hell. Sometimes shes great...but most of the time...

Peace.

8-18

Lauren slept the night last night. Because she came wif me to Brooklyn today, to visit Chesters' aunt Rosie. We spent most of the time there on the beach. We chased seagulls and played with jellyfish...We felt just like little kids. It's a great feeling to just say to hell with everything that's worrying you and dragging you down, and just act like a kid again. It was great. I have so much fun when I'm with Lauren. She's one of the VERY few people I can trust up here. We have the longest talks...sometimes, about the stoopidest shit, yet, niether of us care. We can be serious, while other times, we're dumb as hell. We decided not to call each other our 'best friends'...because whenever we do, something bad happens. So we just call each other, 'really good friends'. We also washed my stepdads' car today. It's all nice and shinee.

Mark left yesterday for Lake Placid. I didn't see him...and I probly won't till Thursday. He's getting back home on Wednesday. He called me today. It surprised me...but it's a great feeling to me, to have HIS be the first voice I hear when I wake up. Here are the lyrics to one of my favorite songs, it's called 'My Carousel' by Finger Eleven:
I've lost it completely
My faith is lost again I'd say
I'm tired of this place and I want to go
Riding my carousel
They can never tell
I'm spinning and turning
Always revolving

See, I think of Mark of my carousel. Not the riding part, jerk, but he's like, the positive thing that keeps me here, in New York...Something positive that's keeping me from going insane. Lauren too, but she may be moving to Georgia...

It's kinda crazee cuz Danny's was the LAST voice I heard before I fell asleep. ::sigh::

I just ate Chinese foooood. Lauren left, and we ordered Chinese. Well, she can have it tomorrow. Anyway, she didn't wanna eat anything, cuz we ate so much today.

Aight. This whole 'havent been to Maryland in months' thing is driving me crazy. I really need to see my friends. I miss them so much. Like I said before, some more than others. Definately two or three more than others. Who knows when mom will take us down. I asked her today, if she could take us down on Labor Day weekend. She said no. She said we'd go down one weekend, but not Labor Day....soo...

I'm going riding tomorrow. Yay!

Next weekend, I'm going to Connecticut with mom and Aunt Edna...I asked Lauren if she wanted to come. But she'll have to be home by Sunday night...and I have no clue how long we'll be staying...probly just overnight...So it should be cool. I was debating whether I wanted her or Mark to come. I think we'd all be better off if I brought her. Mark might get bored. Heh.

Aight, well, I've babbled enough, I'm outta this piece.

Peace...Jerks.

8-19
I've decided to be like everyone else, cuz I'm trendy like that. I've started a Diary land diary. Go here:

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