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6-11
We had a protest last week for Mr. Amato. We didn't quite get the outcome we had hoped for...I don't know why we expected anything positive to come out of it, not with the blockheaded assholes that run our school...those who sweep anything that should be known, anything that could harm their reputations, under the carpet.
Mark and I are SPIFFY!!! Yay!! I didn't hang out w/ him at all last weekend. Poo. that really sucked. But, every time I saw him today, (all three times, lol) I couldn't stop smiling. He makes me so happy, and I bet he doesn't even know. He was gonna come w/ me to Utopia, but he had to do some ghetto ass english thing, so he couldn't. Lol. Poo again. Wow, the only thing I'm not feeling, is the way he never calls when he will...well, he does on occasion. And yes, I know, I should call him, but when I do, it's always at a bad time...so, bleh. lol, oh well, I'll just wait.
Ahhh, Utopia. My beloved Utopia...I went there today, and got baby bloooo UFO's. And a shirt, w/ some chick on it. Hey, if I was a guy, I'd wanna hit that shit! lol.
Why is punk becoming a trend?
I don't understand. Too many ppl...like Madonna and Britney Spears are tryin to rock it like punk...and I'm not feelin that.
Aight, I'ma quit mah bitchin...
PEESE.
Dizzavney
6-12
Hizzell yeah niggah. Two more dayz of skool left. Heh. Rawk on.
After school, I walked w/ mark to his house so he could get money for a haircut, then we started walking downtown. We met sean, and the three of us sat in T.Bell waiting for the others. Then, on to Tom's house. Fun. heh, we were in the basement, and me, tom, steve, and sean were being madd stoopid, and i just fell behind the couch. Laur said it was the funniest thing she'd ever seen, and she was like, "I almost shit my pants!" Lol.
I cried.
Mark doesn't want me to smoke. And I said I wouldn't, then he got mad at me, it's a whole long story. I care for him so much, more than I've ever cared for anyone (in a relationship) before. It's almost scary, but i'm always in a euphoric state when i'm with him.
I miss him.
6-17
I just woke up. It's 11:30. I have a history final tomorrow. I'm gonna fail. i returned my textbook, and my notebook is in my locker. i can't get into my locker, which has A LOT of stuff in it, b/c they changed the lock. i don't know what to do. and i can't study. cuz mom won't let me go anywhere. And that's what i need to do if i'm gonna study. God.
I miss mark. I don't think that's ever gonna change, if i'm not with him. It's like, tara's the only one that understands, that, if i'm somewhere, and he's not there, it's like, 'what's the point?'...i had a great time with him last night. just being with him. that's all i really wanna do! and my mom doesn't trust me, so it's gonna be hard going there this summer, which is what i wanna do, i don't really wanna do much else, 'cept go to MD, and that probly won't happen too much either.
Lauren and i were together most of last night. We had fun. lol, we were watching this crazee girl that was totally in her own world, w/ the moozik. i mean, we gave her props for not caring what anyone thought, but...did she hafta look so stoopid doing it?? lol. Then, we went to get some rice from the chinese place, cuz we were hungry, but we didn't want anything too fattening or too unhealthy, cuz it was late. anyway, after that, we went to the bowling alley, zbig drove us. my mom called when we were in the car, and the conversation went like this:
Mom-'who's driving you?'
Me-'Zbig...'
Mom-'Who's with you?'
Me-'Who's with me?...Lauren, Steve, and of course Zbig.'
(then Zbig broke in with:)
Zbig-'IT'S JUST ME AND YOU BABY!!'
Me-(laughing)'We're on our way to the bowling alley, so just calm down.I'm hanging up now, mom.'
Then, she kept asking questions but that was the silly part.
When we got there, we were just kinda hanging out, then, lauren and i started getting requests for our 'P*1 & P*2' thing. So we did it. Twice. lol. then i left.
PIZZEACE
6-18
I had the history thing today...It was kinda hard, but not that bad. I talked outta my ass for the essays. lol.
After the test, we all went to Pribals, A beach around here. I was basically with mark, and occasionally lauren the whole time. Lol...i'm sure that makes a lot of sense. So after that, we went to ruby tuesday's, and ate like fat shits. Then, we went outside, and hung out for a while. It was great...THEN, while waiting for my mom to pick me, mark, denise, and lauren up, mark and i were kissing. I was like, "my mom's gonna be here soon, we gotta stop." then he was like, "one more, thats' it..." so we did, and 'LO AND BEHOLD' mom pulls right up behind us, just as we did so. NICCCCCE, right? lol. yeah, that's about it...
Peace out...Thug Life...Rawk On
6-20
Well, a lot has gone on in the past couple of days. i'm hardly home anymore. i just don't wanna deal with it. my grandfather (on mom's side) died last night. i've never seen my mom cry like that...it tore me up inside, knowing that nothing i could do or say was going to make it better. so i just went into my room for like, the third time in the past few days, and just cried. I couldn't do anything...I felt so helpless, hopeless.
I miss mark, as usual. I talked to him yesterday, but he was having a good time w/ all of his friends or something, and he didn't seem to notice that i sounded upset. I could've...SHOULD'VE told him that i needed to talk, but then i'd feel like i was bringing him down. So I didnt. And, as usual, he said he'd call me back, and didn't. So I didn't see him at all yesterday. Which is probably what I needed most.
On the other hand, I had a lot of fun last night. Me, Laur, Sam, and Steve were all at Denise's, but then we had to leave, so we went to sam's. They were shooting a movie at her house, well, down the road, and it's called "G". I think it's like, "G-Spot" or "G-String", but lauren thinks it's like, "Yo, wuttup Homie G". lol. Anyway. After that, we went to the movies, and Steve pissed Lauren off. So she asked me to go for a walk w/ her. We ended up finding a few guys, 8th graderz,Cavan, John A., John S, Jared, Jamison. So we were talking to them for a little while, then we decided to go back to the movies, where we were b4.
There, it was the whole group:
Me, Steve, Tom, Sean, Cavan, John A., John S., Diego, Georgio, Jared, Jamison, Sam, Davney, David, Louie, Kaitlyn, Christina, Eric and Jackie.
We hung out, and did stuff, then i went home at like 10ish. That was really it...
I'm leaving for the Philippines on Sunday...I'm afraid of planes. Wish me luck.
"Peese"
7-16
I didn't go to sleeeeep. My flight came in at one in the morning. and i came home, COMPLETELY AWAKE, LIKE AN UPPITY CRACKER. Mark came w/ my stepdad and my aunt to el aeropuerto. score. wow, i REALLY missed him...like, supreme woahness missed him. yep. I did a lot in the 'philly penis' [haha, alix]. and i got a crazee tan line on my arms and shoulders, and neck...but it's fading....poo. oh well, it'll come back. i'm goin to MD soon. maybe mark will come. i'm making lauren come whether she wants to or not. lmao. hmm... i wanna do mucho stuff-o today....o. yep. aight, i'm bouncin to take mah ass a shower. it be 6:27 in the a.m....cuz, as i said before...'me no duermo.' lmao. god i'm stoopeed. aight kiddies, i'm off to frolick with some midgets, and my bunny...named Magic Pizza...in the shower...yes...no...let's have no mental images...HOI! PUT THAT LUBE DOWN!!! EWWW NIGGAHH!!! NOOO!!!....wow, let me go shoot myself in the face. oh yeah, don't drink gasoline. DIESEL ALL THE WAY BABY!!! YEEEAAH!
peese.
7-19
I haven't seen Mark in two days. I haven't seen any of my friends since i left. I've talked to them, but i haven't seen them. Sean and i are gonna go to taco bell later. Maybe lauren, steve, tom, and mark will go w/ us. So it'll be just like old times. I talked to Melissa...we're kind of fixing everything...in a way. I'm just gonna be careful. Wow, it's strange w/o Sam and Denise being here...but oh well. At least Lauren and Lani are here. We're the only girls. We usually ARE the only girls. lol. oh well. nothing new, other than I LOVE MARK. hehe. aight, lata playaz.
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